The life in the United States is like an extreme rollercoaster, it makes you tough and makes you weak at the same time.
There are two months in the calendar year that usually works best for me; the first one is May; the second one is September. I can’t explain this feeling, it just happened to be like that for the past 5 years. Maybe it has to do with the fact that these two months fall within my favorite seasons - Spring and Fall.
Last May, when most of the world went into a deep dive, I started to feel awake. Things magically started working out for me and I was able to get out of my continuance nightmare. It felt good, and it lasted, which is the coolest part of it all. May and September also represent two important milestones in my journey to the United States.
At this point, you should know that the US is my favorite place on earth and it’s my home since 2016. I’m extremely grateful for this, in this time and age it’s nothing to be taken for granted. During this Pandemic, the United States got a bad reputation and I got asked a few times why I love this place so much. I can’t really explain it. I just do. A friend told me once that when you love somebody or something, you don’t follow a list of points to mark. You love it because you love it; that’s it.
The life in the United States is like an extreme rollercoaster, it makes you tough and makes you weak at the same time. I might be sadistic but I kinda like it. I always took risks in my life, tons of bad decisions, and mostly childish behaviors… But I wouldn’t trade it for the world for a boring lifestyle of 9-5, and following paths that were built and already there for me, instead of building it myself. I lost a lot because of this; friends, the last sober moments of my grandfather, probably a few years of life due to anxiety, a ton of money most likely, and whatnot. But I wouldn’t change it.
Yes- I could have done things differently, educate myself ahead of time; it’s all true. But luckily, everything is fixable and I got time. I can’t wait for September; this September marks my 4th year in the United States. And I’m eager to get it restarted. Good friends of mine, who when through the same journey always told me “as long as you’ll survive the first three years, you’ll start enjoying the 4th year and on”. I’m looking forward to it.
This coming Fall is when I rise. The Fall has the greatest, most beautiful, and exciting impact on me as a person and as a creating creature. September brings the best of me and I’m excited to be sharing with you everything that I held back so far.
Stay safe, mask up.
Love,
S.
